My skincare sins I am not ashamed of.
Since I became a mom, I have met with a lot of understanding from my family. For holidays, I am no longer obligated to bring a home-cooked dish, because I am busy with my kiddo. For family gatherings in our house, I no longer get pity looks on how messy my apartment is: “you’re a full-time working Mom, you probably don’t have time to clean after work”. When it comes to being on time, no one gives me lectures on being late because you know…getting ready with a toddler is not easy, etc., etc. In the beginning, the thought of not having to cook/clean/be on time scared me. In the past, I’ve felt pressured to have all my life in order: health & beauty detoxed, diet on check-point, routines and active lifestyle on check, career deadlines on check. I was a multitasking type A personality, going to the gym, reading books, watching niche and independent movies, believing that this is what is EXPECTED from me… Suddenly, it all changed. It took me some time to realize, that no one expected anything from me, and this is when a full reset started. I finally stopped giving a sheet. Not fully, but I stopped living for perfection. Call me crazy, call me lazy, but thanks to this I learned how to let it go.
The reset influenced all major areas of my life: I no longer took part in an imaginary cooking show, where every dinner had to be a healthy masterpiece prepared under 30 minutes. I no longer felt obligated to organize and label things in my apartment (hello OCD!), and finally I no longer felt I need to look like a model. Of course, I like to take care of myself, but I no longer go on guilt trips when I commit “skincare sins”. What are my sins? Nothing major, I would probably get by in front of the skincare judges panel but remember that we are talking here about me - miss independent who had time for everything. Now, it’s not the case.
Sin #1: I DON'T SHAPE MY EYEBROWS.
Here, I said it. There is a funny story about my eyebrows from the time when I was 13 years old and I started discovering the secrets of the beauty world. I was completely fascinated with photos with models and their perfect eyebrows and for some weird reason, I figured that they must shave them to get that beautiful arch. So, I shaved half of my eyebrows. Yup. I looked like a weirdo and since then, the hair in the eyebrows area has been weak. They never grew stronger or darker. I tried tons of treatments; I went to estheticians who would help me grow them back, but nope. This is the way they are.
Sin #2: I DO ABSOLUTELY NOTHING ABOUT MY UNDEREYES DARK CIRCLES.
Don’t get me wrong: I use eye patches, but not with the intention of getting rid of my dark circles. I simply gave up on any sort of eye creams promising me to remove those panda eyes. Those circles are a result of many sleepless nights that I spent either studying, hanging out with my friends, or overanalyzing something until 3 am. Then you can add the motherhood which smashed me and left me severely sleep-deprived; Plus, the genes and we have a nice formula for something that is now a part of me, almost like my post-pregnancy stretch marks.
Sin #3: I DON'T ALWAYS DRINK 8 GLASSES OF WATER PER DAY.
Do you know what it feels like to wake up on Saturday at 6:40 am and chase your toddler from 6:41 am till 8:30 pm? I do. Sometimes, I barely have time to sit down so on some days drinking water becomes a challenge. I am completely aware of the importance of drinking water, but life happens.
Sin #4: I DON'T ALWAYS EXFOLIATE MY SKIN OR SHAVE MY LEGS.
Again: HERE, I SAID IT. I feel like this is something that a lot of women will understand. Especially in winter.
Sin #5: I HATE GETTING PEDICURES (and I don’t do one).
I know, I know: it looks corny when you only have a manicure done, but your toenails look like hobbits. I simply hate when someone does something to my feet. Plus, when you add filing, scrubbing, even the massage… it all gives me a weird feeling.
And that’s it. That’s the end of my confession and I hope I made you feel a little bit more relaxed about your own routine or no routine. Why I decided to share some of the very intimate details from my life? As a part of my therapy, I want to show you that it is possible to live with imperfections and accept them. My skin is always going to have its ups and downs. And I am accepting it. I am finally at peace with myself and my skin.